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- #1
"Fuck."
He breathed the word out heavy, drawing it through his teeth with a hiss and groan. It was almost laughable -- almost, if the panic in his chest could settle and alleviate the acidic sour taste rising in the back of his throat. Almost. He had come to Nauwill to start over; to be someone he couldn't have been back home, where the rules of how to be and what could be done had been long laid out centuries ago. Here, on this developing island, Wynmond had the chance to help mold the definition of the every day on Nauwill. He was neither arrogant nor had an ego that made him believe he'd have too much say in the matter realistically, but it felt sure of a hell more like a possible home than the one he had grown up in. He had felt safer facing the unknown than trying to fit into the mold of what he had been raised in, and now...
Well, now it was fucking ruined, wasn't it?
Jun was here. Jun Ito was in fucking Nauwill. The torn sigh from his throat couldn't express the frustration and grief unraveling in his brain, but it was a start. His breakup with Jun wasn't the catalyst for his escape from Johto, but it had certainly added to the pile of reasons. Wynmond had felt a great relief in the belief he'd never have to see his first love (and, subsequently, first heartbreak) ever again, and yet- Jun had a way of taking over a space, didn't he? And now he could be around any corner, ransacking the spaces Wynmond had begun to feel he had a place in and taking-
No- no, that was unreasonable. 'I'm doing it again,' Wynmond thought with another groan and tug of his hair. It was unfortunate, and uncomfortable, and... a plethora of other things he had names for, but it wouldn't be the end of the world. It'd be okay, maybe. And if not... well, he could leave Nauwill, too. He could pack his bags and run away somewhere else if he had to. It wasn't like he had done much here, anyway. No one would miss him if he boarded the next ship. No one except....
Ah- actually...
His hands plunged into his coat, fumbling for the often abandoned and undercharged phone that miraculously hadn't died from its neglect. He could leave, but what had his therapist said before? Something something, hippie shit-- ah, yeah, reach out to your friends. He hadn't had them then, but now...
Are you busy?
He fired the text before he could regret it.