Just after Branchtail had approached Nutpelt, the Clan seemed to be nearly overcome with new cats approaching them. Branchtail's fur bristled defensively as he looked over his shoulder.
"Do you feel comfortable leaving our Clanmates with all of these loners about?" He found himself asking Nutpelt.
"I... I didn't want to make a public showing of what I need to say to you, but I understand the urge to protect our Clan and I will speak to you around others, if you deem it the right thing to do." He informed her, finally looking back to the ginger she-cat.
Regardless of what Nutpelt's answer may have been, when he got the moment to speak to her, whether in the company of their Clanmates (much to his embarrassment, for vulnerability did not come easily to him, especially with other cats around) or privately, he turned his green gaze to Nutpelt's own, though as always, hers seemed all the brighter than his own.
"This isn't easy to say and I'm... not good at speaking from the heart." He warned her.
"Undoubtedly I will come across as foolhardy or mouse-brained... Maybe none of it is what you want to hear, but... I hope that you will, Nutpelt, that you will hear me out, until I am finished."
"I... can't make up with Palepaw. Not for lack of wanting to!" He added hurriedly.
"I just... I don't think she'd hear me after all the horrible things I said. And, in hindsight, they were horrible. I don't... I can acknowledge..." He started with a resigned sigh,
"...that the things I said, while in initially good intentioned, were not things that Palepaw wished nor needed to hear - at least, not in the way that I went about saying them." He had sat down, but his tail flicked so much in his evident anxiety that it was snake-like in its movements. "
And I don't think I can ever apologize in a way that she'll really accept it, or forgive me for what I said. I don't think Mothwing, or Poppypaw will either. I'll try to apologize, really, but... I may just give it time. It's still recent in everyone's mind and I don't want to provoke another fight. Especially with so much going on." He glanced over his shoulder, towards where he heard loner voices.
Turning his gaze back to Nutpelt, he cleared his throat, for it had become rough for a reason he couldn't explain.
"As far as we - that is to say, us - er well... I don't quite know where we stand, Nutpelt. I really enjoyed your company over the course of our travels. You're beautiful and you're kind and if I had just stopped to listen to you maybe I wouldn't have dug myself into such an impossibly deep hole with Palepaw - so clearly you're the more sensible between the two of us." He chuckled, but fell momentarily silent, before going on.
"But I don't think you want to hear compliments. I think... maybe I'm going to have to show you that I... that I love you. And even if you don't feel the same way, that's okay. I'm not going to tell everyone that we're together, just because that's the future I want to achieve. It's your future as much as mine and... and I'll respect your choice." He was silent for a longer moment this time. Had he said too much or too little? Had he seemed overly dramatic or like he was trying to hard? SunClan, he would much rather be fighting off any one of these loners, than waiting in this tense silence for Nutpelt's reply. Oh! Did she even know he was done speaking?
"I'm finished." He added and despite wanting to turn his head away, to crawl off and hide until this impractical feeling of vulnerability passed him, he stayed and he looked at Nutpelt, willing her to speak.
@PeterPan_da144 (Branchtail to Nutpelt.)